Who Cares?

Today I woke up at 2:00am with a woman standing in our tiny hospital unit, staring at me sleeping on the floor.

I'm incredibly used to this occurrence by now. (Please refer to this post: http://staytunedtoace.blogspot.com/2013/01/hey-im-just-as-bad-as-you.html)

Without skipping a beat, with one tired eye open I say, "Hi. Coulda sworn the party was tomorrow."

She walks out without saying a word.

Dan keeps telling me, "JUST close the door!!"

No. It's MY door, and I will leave it cracked, and if people really can't resist the urge to open it ALL the way, ALL the time and see whatever weird stuff we're up to, than I don't care, either.

We are only allowed to have one room key. This gets tricky because there are times when one wants to go shower while the other goes to living room to watch TV. Or one goes downstairs to check on Son while other has to visit with the social worker.

We usually just leave the door cracked even though it concerns Dan every single time.

He is convinced that everyone and anyone is trying to rob us and will if given the chance.

I just sigh and shake my head.

Okay, let's assume that our unit is robbed, in a hospital that requires every single person to pass security and wear a badge, and then walk down corridors that each and every single one has cameras.

We own nothing valuable. And if we did, we certainly wouldn't have it here.

So... what's the big deal? Someone steals a 6-pack of orange soda, a $15 plastic shelf that we brought to store our thrift store clothing, and our hospital provided blankets?

Let's focus that paranoid energy elsewhere.

Yes, it's good to keep your guard up to a certain degree, because yes, there are a ton of people in the world that would love to rip you off. After stressing about who would carry the door key or who would meet who where, I told Dan that NOT EVERYONE IS OUT TO GET YOU.

Then I realized how sad it is that I have to reassure my husband of that. I still have hope that there is some innate good in everyone.

Everyone is here because they got past security because they know a child here. I'd like to think that everyone here is concerned about something other than a phone charger. And if they aren't, we'll buy a new one.