I am very lucky.

This year for Christmas I am giving everyone in my family the same thing with the hope that it will be universally enjoyed by all of them. It is basically a digital family photo album of 2008 in review, which happens to be perfectly complimented by Rascal Flatts singing "My Wish" in the background.

So here I am in front of my computer, it's 1:13am, and I can't sleep. I decided to stir myself outta bed for awhile and came down to watch this project of mine as some sort of therapy. I just need to feel better right now, and thought perhaps looking at a video of my family would be a great remedy. Whenever I'm having a bad day, it helps to remember that I'm not in this alone. I'm not gonna lie, today has been a very hard day. I can almost say with certainty that this is the worst day I've ever had.

This morning, I arrived at school on time for my two hour math final, settled into my desk feeling confident about the outcome, but my morning was instantly set off course when I realized that my extra credit packet was missing. Doesn't sound like a big deal, I know, but this was the extra credit packet that I've slaved over, lost sleep over, and stressed about for the last week. And hey go figure, on the last possible day to turn it in, it's nowhere to be found. My day was doomed from that point on.

By 9:20am, the scheduled amount of time for the final was expired and I shuffled out of the classroom grumbling and kicking my feet around. But no, that's not all. It gets better. At 11:00am I found myself in mental anguish at the dentist office, trying to prepare myself for what was about to happen. Two hours later, after writhing around in the dentist chair, after watching blood spatter on my clothes from the drill, after squeezing my hands so hard that the dentist told me they had turned green, and after crying the whole way through, I finally emerged with 4 wisdom teeth having been successfully removed. My day since then has been a blur.

So anyways, back to what I was saying: I was laying in bed, swallowing mouthfuls of blood, thinking about the movie I made and wanted to watch it. And now, after watching it a few times through, I realized a few things.

I realized why I love taking pictures. Watching photos of my loved ones move across the computer monitor, it's impossible not to think about that moment in time when I make everyone pause to smile for me. That little concept right there makes me so happy... I take pictures, and people smile at me while doing so. And needless to say, I'm thankful for the fact that I have so many amazing people in my life to include in the album. Watching this is a true reminder of how full of love my life is. That's a very good feeling.

I'll probably post it on here after I've distributed them out to everyone. Wouldn't want to ruin the surprise.

[[ Disclaimer: I've taken quite a few pills by this point and am sort of loopy. My thought process is kind of hazy right now, so until I come back to proof read this tomorrow, please overlook the choppiness of it all.]]