A fabulously dreary Monday

This morning I overslept my alarm but magically woke up at 6:45. I made it to school with time to spare and had a fairly productive day. School makes me feel good... like I have some sort of purpose in life besides only working 5 hours a day... like my life is actually moving forward. I'm looking forward to this quarter already. I like the program for my psychology class because it's more like an independent study, and math will be challenging but I'm glad I will actually learn from this teacher. I got an "A" in math last quarter, but that's no testament as to how much of the course material I actually understood. I think the teacher had a soft spot for me and would pretty much correct my tests without marking me down. I probably deserved a low "C". Different teacher this quarter though, and it's a she. Lol.

Only taking ten credits this quarter. Hopefully a move is in my very near future, and on top of having to take care of getting my car fixed (will take 11 days in the shop), I just didn't feel like taking on a full schedule. I'd rather enjoy my time in school, even if it takes me 6 years to complete a degree (which is sadly very realistic). On the bright side, at least it excuses me to remain on my parent's car insurance :)

I'm gonna change topics now to something else that has been on my mind all last night and today. I can't even begin to explain how complicated the situation is, but yesterday I had a "falling out" with someone that I once considered a very good, close friend of mine. I've heard before that the reason friends come and go throughout life all boils down to a matter of convenience. I think there is a lot of truth in that statement... I've had neighbors in the past that became very good friends of mine, but as soon as someone moves, it melts away. I've had good relationships with old coworkers, but as soon as I find a new job, it's gone. I have a ton of friends from high school that will always be just friends from high school. When I lived with my sister I considered her one of my best friends, but when I moved out, the relationship faded a bit. It really is just a matter of convenience... finding someone who needs you at the same time you need them..

I've got a handful of friends that have come and gone throughout my life that I will always hold our memories dear to my heart. Some friends have made such an impact on my life that I'll never let go of what we had at one point just because it's no longer convenient. The kind of friend that you can see twice a year, but even at that, it feels like there was never a time gap because you automatically reconnect.

I can't really say that I'm upset about the abrupt end of this particular friendship. I think I've mistaken a good drinking buddy as a good friend. At this point, there's no reason to salvage what's gone. I'm glad that I still have some of the best friends ever and I'd rather find out sooner rather than later if someone is going to stab me in the back.

I hope everyone is having a decent day on this dreary of drearist Mondays. Have you ever heard the saying, "It's not about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain." Even with so much negativity and tension floating around my group right now, I can still look around and see so many reasons to smile, and I love every one of you :)