Rain

I woke up this morning hoping it would rain, and it poured. I love it when the weather suits my mood. There's nothing like being surrounded by dreariness when you're already feeling down. Today hasn't been a good day, and I think it warrants me taking an overnight trip down to my broken-hearted-hide-away.

I feel like I've written this blog so many times before even though I hate admitting that I keep making the same mistake over and over again. I posted a blog a few days ago while I was upset, and ended up taking it down sometime the next day, but the gist of it was me asking how long should one put up with something that doesn't make them feel good... basically, how much is too much? I deleted it because it was in frustration against a specific person, and I thought maybe we had started to get past the problem in question. I have finally realized that it's just not something I can be okay with and took corrective action. I was hoping to evoke some emotion out of this person, maybe as some proof that he actually cared, but got nothing. I guess that's all I needed to know.

I'm tired of feeling like I care too much about people that don't reciprocate the feeling, and it's really wearing me down. Today I just feel... defeated. Just completely drained. Could be my lousy night's sleep in anticipation of how today would play out, or could be the emotional punch in the face I received today, or it could be that Lynsey's car broke down today and we had to freeze in the car while waiting for the tow truck, and consequently making us both late to work.

Guess that's all I've got to say at the moment. I'm leaving tonight. Be back tomorrow.