Animals.

There is no such thing as time Here.
Thanks, Life.
Just appointments and hopes.

So anyways, we went home "today". But technically it isn't today anymore since it's already 2:30am on the new today. Technically we went home yesterday, but it doesn't feel right saying that since we haven't had a night's sleep and welcomed the new day.

Anywho, we were home only to do laundry, find clothes that fit me so I don't feel like shit all the time in saggy pants, clean the chicken coop and collect eggs.

I brought a big bucket into the chicken coop thinking we'd have at least a dozen eggs.

Nope.

Only four eggs. In our 4-5 day absence, they have only laid four eggs. Even my birds are hurting from us being gone.

I made spaghetti just for them. Fed them leftovers that had been forgotten in the fridge and threw some fruit out for them to peck at.

Whether they actually eat it or not, at least they have something new to look at.

I know what it feels like to be stuck in the same environment 24/7 with nothing new or intriguing.

My heart aches for the chickens. Even a stupid bird's body is affected when she feels alone.

I pet the cats. I hugged the cats. I held them until they get away by almost scratching me.

They've been peeing on the bathroom rugs :(

Luckily I have enough time to wash and dry the rugs during this home visit. They haven't been lacking food or water at all thanks to a friend staying at our house, but through the abnormal behaviour, I feel they've been missing us as well.

I asked a nurse some medical question about long-term effects on Son, and while not directly answering my specific question, she said that babies in long term care at hospitals are likely to have emotional / mental issues. Feeling alone is hard for any living being.

Please, Son, don't ever doubt you are loved.
Please, Chickens, don't ever doubt you are loved.
Please, Kitties, don't ever doubt you are loved.
Please, Jade, don't ever doubt you are loved.

My absence at one point or another does not ever mean you are alone.

Son, I will come back to you and read you Brown Bear, Brown Bear, What Do You See? until the pages fall off. One thing you should always know to be true, I would give my last breath for you to keep yours and I will always come back for you.

I have so much love for anything with a beating heart, but I am only one person, and I know my son is my priority, but sometimes I just need to make sure even a chicken knows it's cared for.